No! I can´t see
I'm standing in an ocean of darkness
Did my mother kill me?
I'm not sure she did
I can't feel my legs
I can't open my eyes
Is this what being dead looks like
I don't know!
I think i'm starting to remember
But still some memories are hold back
Something led me into this unconcius void
Was it my mother? Was it someone else?
A light, appears, high
I'm starting to percieve
the voices that sorround me
I cannot tell if they are real
but I think I´ll soon be awake
I can see it now
I look at the reflection in the mirror
Whose are these eyes I see through?
I can't recognize what's on the other side
Whose is these mouth I speak through?
Who is this woman staring at me?
Whose is this body in which I'm trapped?
Am I still six years old?
Whose is this mind in which I exist?
(You're not who you think you are)
My mind is not my mind, is not my mind, is not me
My life is not my life, is not my life, is not me
Your life is a lie!
Remember, you stupid girl
you killed your father so long ago
you said it was an accident
but no one would ever believe
You've been locked in this hospital ever since
talking to me the voice inside your head
you denied the guilty for so many years
but your fake world is now fading
Reality is just a matter of perception
why can't be my world as real as yours?
How can you know that you aren't the ones who sleep?
how can you know what to believe?
What to believe?
No! I refuse this world!
Condemned to live in this reality I did not choose
I think it's better to go back to sleep
Maybe this time I'll find in dreams the peace that has been declined
I may not wake up again, and this is the end of the diary